"Thank you, but I am no longer in need of that kind of support,"
Seth Meyers reported in an interview which i did not stop to cite
he said something like this to his parents,
in response to what I translate as,
adhering to common-core cut-of-culture's "left behind standard" that alienates life,
causing even parents to eat their child alive.
I'z reminded of this after taking in a few of Seth's AP Bio treatments.
fucking hilarious but not, funny how it works like that at times.
thanku, Seth.
For another angle on which we say and sing,
dig into numerology when u will,
playing around with the question:
is this your first, second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth, seventh, eight, ninth time on planet earth?
thanku, De-De Chandler, for that reminder and so much more.
Faer Warning:
Any/all mother/father, single and not,
entering "my" classroom for inside-out-tolerance
might be triggered by abused, neglected orphan adopted but not me.
think about it. get it yet?
how any of you mother fathers crying on my shoulder parallels all those that stepped away from my table
change for families and nations to their delight
yet then 4x more likely to suicide,
not to mention lash out, homicide, overdose,
flunk out of family, school, society
grossly misdiagnosed and mistreated.
Kaale/Mustalainen/Black/FinnishRomanyGypsyadoptedAmericanUSA*me
part of "my""werk" is "play to stay alive and thrive".
part of my exercise is to spit it out,
shit out this shit finally in the first place.
please don't tell me to refine refine refine thanks
for that superior, holocaustic train of thought
underscores extent of exclusion and slavery to this day thanks
adopt a draft, rough, incomplete, kind of like me,
god only knows if this is close to conveyance
and please pardon sarcasm, hate, intolerance, violence,
danger steer clear, that's my amygdala fearfully reacting to ongoing racism/loss/abuse/neglect.
and please pardon sarcasm, hate, intolerance, violence,
danger steer clear, that's my amygdala fearfully reacting to ongoing racism/loss/abuse/neglect.
what?
did u think that's who i truly am?
there's that erase-ism, racism again.
there's that erase-ism, racism again.
me, too; I kin relate.
I'm sorry. Please forgive me. And thank you. I love you all. and Ho'oponopono.
eye love u, Spirit, thank u for helping me draw the cards included in this post
pre-pre-exhibition)
we have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear;
we have received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry:
thanks god for helping us all ~Romans 8:15
as far as east is from west is how far transgression is removed from us ~Psalm 103:12
pre-exhibition)
on the alchemy of learning.....
Every human being adopts relevant knowledge, aspirations, skills, attitudes, behaviors, animals, babies, cultures, etc. for life needed, wanted, desired to overcome each/every loss, as life and that being keep changing here + there + beyond, while dancing with 6 predictable cards: guilt and shame, mastery and control, rejection, identity, intimacy, grief to overcome the accompanying predictable intolerance, hate, violence, delayed academic - cultural development.
EXHIBIT A)
Where did the peep show begin today 6 September 2020? last night, 5 September 2020. flip thru exhibits like tarot, or not.
"Neither society nor the adoptor, who holds the child in her arms wants to confront the agony of the Mother from whose arms the same child was taken." thanku, Margaret McDonald Lawrence and Is Adoption Trauma share on FB.
reminds me of much, like:
my adolescent birth ma wanted to keep me but had no support from her family/friends to raise a half breed in country where it used to be illegal to be that breed. U know this freaks out to the point of no return some adoptive mothers who are so bent on being THE mom, triggers their adoption issues, what caused them to choose to adopt, which was not about the orphan adopted.
how about this year for THE family reunion:
adoptive, birth, fosters, godparents, in-laws, friends who have chosen to become parents of people, places, things ZOOM
without u-know-who in the room.
u kin think of it as the annual beginning of the year teacher meeting. instead of breaking ice maybe jig-saw Gypsy Myth Debunked with all its sweeping extensions for an activity, or play it like tarot with each other; adopt a draft, rough and incomplete, kind of like me. On non-violence, truth, and his 9 other vows, Gandhi suggests that home is the first university and parents are the teachers. Then CSNY sings to the kids, "Teach your parents well."
EXHIBIT B)
"The majority of babies that end up in the adoption system have families who can take care of them, and mothers who love and want to have them. Please read that again." thanku, Ferera Swan for sharing on FB.
reminds me of much, like:
So. Yah. Yup. Look around. Here I am. "stuckinthemiddlewithyou" bette loving all mothers fathers families friends nations in "my" life, from a distance, out of sight, working smart to fix what broke us. gonna play with myself now that card in our stacked for life deck of cards "no body is perfect life is for learning to tolerate, starting with self" careful of flip-side "s/he will never learn; off with the head."
EXHIBIT C)
1. Cut off culture incorrectly schools abused, neglected orphan adopted-and-not, and their families, to translate loss/trauma as mental illness - stupidity - terrorism, with predictably fucked up outcomes.
2. What if cut off culture incorrectly schools abused, neglected orphan adopted-and-not, and their families, to translate loss/trauma as mental illness - stupidity - terrorism, with predictably fucked up outcomes?
EXHIBIT D)
Plight of abused, neglected abandoned orphan adopted-and-not, Romany-gypsy included?
How to be heard when every body else has let themselves off the hook, excusing themselves from the table for good.
EXHIBIT E)
How to heal when family, friends, nations refuse to deal?
How to overcome racism when your family, friends, nations deny, project that abuse/neglect back onto you, while they march forward still acting erase-ist?
What to do when folk refuse to talk out conflict with you, preferring to leave you behind judged rude, crazy, dumb, ass?
Put on a weekly event:
Sunday fundaynight "Balancing the Universe Exhibition"from ~10pm-11:15pm eastern standard time.
WHAT?
What most do people hate to talk about? Loss.
What most delays and obstructs learning and leading? Loss.
What most delays living and loving? Loss. What most breeds intolerance, hate, and violence? Loss.
U cannot teach through that loss (see Maslow's hierarchy of needs); mercy, grace, like any abused, neglected, abandoned body wants/needs/desires to be schooled when they are down and out, anyways.
SO, from a safe, sound distance, for khangarjako tiija~time of divine service, AT YOUR REQUEST, I act as a channel for healing, inspiring, guiding love light, without violating your complex and/or free will.
You already do this for yourself; you do not need me.
This display is limited to one person each week, with pre/post prayer/meditation time (of which you can choose to be a part or not) already included, so step right up, speaking clearly when/if you want in on it.
Then after we come to an agreement, next steps:
We move forward as if you are on our healing table during allotted slot,
so you:
1) feel as much love in y/our heart for yourself/universe as kin muster;
2) without telling, visualize beyond-belief, healthiest outcome desired as if it's already done
(as in, the opposite of your loss/es);
3) with reverence, try to be as detached as possible to that unbelievable desired outcome;
4) designate a cozy place to be comfortably uninterrupted for 5-45 minutes during our time, and a journal (to date/write/draw/record your pre/post treatment reflections, which u kin choose to publicize, or not);
5) ask questions, as needed.
IF/WHEN nobody is interested in this event, then eye dedicate it to mother earth, father sky, guides.
BOUNDARIES: wounded healer me, of course, I reserve right to refuse service,
like when m'hands are full saving myself and/or my playmate.
FAER WARNING:
Only for free and with family/friends can I share right now because I am a novice (like level one of three) studying and practicing to be a master-mistress over warped time and space.
Awkward, as abused, neglected BIPOC orphan adopted for more, but I'm game if you are; I love you all.
DISCLAIMER, especially for those already with heart-body-mind conditions: crystal energy healing and reiki are not to be taken without consideration, nor are they substitutes for medical, educational, legal, spiritual treatments, so please take time and space to consult yourself and your teambefore deciding whether or not this mind-body-spirit treatment is for you to adopt, thanks.
...like, do you already have a weak heart?
Have you already experienced "dark night of the soul"?
and What if activating yourself and shooting a rocket into space are equivalent?
Theodore Roethke suggests, "What we need are more people who specialize in the impossible." a
so be it and so it was amen AWOMEN
whichever way u go carry om >>---> ...like my teachers: Spirit, nature, aliens, ancestors,
all of my families, friends,
including students from around mother earth who graced me with their presence, virtually at Gypsy Myth Debunked and its extensions, AND in private/public school classrooms at Amphitheater High School (Tucson, AZ), Harris Newmark High School (Los Angeles, CA), Perris High School (Perris, CA), CEDU HS (Running Springs, CA), Desert Hills Center for Youth and Family (Tucson, AZ),
AND Voice of Roma
AND Living Legend Harold Lush
AND Living Legend Felix Monget
AND Rebel Priest
AND Prince of Lilies
AND BAND CAMP
AND CSU San Marcos
AND UC Riverside
AND Fairfax High School now the Lions, used to be the Rebels, with Johhny Reb as mascot when I began attending 1984. if i recall correctly, ~1987, mascot was changed at request of student body, perhaps cannabis friendly student student body prez led that charge. 1987/8, our last year, we called ourselves the gayblades for the mascot changed from johnny reb to: two swords crossed. Ah, how times they change.
AND Girl Scouts
AND Villa Aquatics
AND so many more.
EXHIBIT F)
"Adoption Conversation Starter""Only Adoptees understand Adoptees & Only Informed Adoptees understand the complexities." Thanku, Adoptee Rights Australia - ARA, Inc www.adopteerightsaustralia.org.au FB share.
reminds me of much, like:
I used to act like uninformed adoptee, smacking down informed relatively viscuously. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank u. I love you all.
EXHIBIT G)
"Judgment is so addictive because it relieves us from the internal struggle with shame." thanku, @the.holistic.psychologist for the FB share.
Reminds me of much, like:
a) how abused, neglected orphan adopted-and-not grossly misdiagnosed/mistreated as addict, with devastating effects;
AND b) 6 predictable cards with which we dance overcoming loss (guilt and shame, rejection, mastery and control, intimacy, identity, grief) TO ADOPT new knowledge, aspirations, skills, attitudes, behaviors, animals, babies, cultures, etc for life wanted, needed, desired as person and life keep changing here, there, and beyond;
AND c) when we heal, so do countless generations forward and back glory b alelujah
EXHIBIT H)
To all those folks sharing "content""making fun" of people pets presidents...
What if laughter is not always "the best medicine"?
How do u feel when somebody justifies making rude cartoons - content about u, "poking""fun" of u?
What if what makes it okay-but-not for you to kick dog like bully is the Same thing as the others: amygdala?
"me, too" takes on a whole new life...style?!
EXHIBIT I)
ay aiy I eye
gunning
for the
Nobel Peace Prize
gunning
for the
Nobel Peace Prize
😂sing😂like😂canta😂no😂llores😂
EXHIBIT J)
beloved family friends, please try to see your entitlement/impulse/instinct to "hate" people, places, things
(like "assholes", "dumbasses", 2020, virus, pandemic, "criminal", donald trump, his opponent, LGBTQ, Black, African, gypsy, Gypsy, Romany, traveler, refugee, immigrant, weather, sex offender, "terrorist", "tyrant", fascist, home school/work, face-mask, refuse, litterbug, adoptee, person who appears "to have" it easier/more challenging than u)
as a big, ole white triangular canvas flag happily flappinwavin' you on to summon adoption spirit magic.
so be it and so it was one day all of the sudden and not at all the stream of hate transformed to love
HUGS
EXHIBIT K)
Please consider immediate
redistribution of resources garnered for
columbus, defense, war, Independence/Memorial/Veterans's/Valentines/Mothers/Fathers/Grandparents Day"
to all
abused, neglected, orphaned
newborn - elder
people, places, things
animals, land, Indigenous all tribes, Africans, Asians, Latino, women, handi-capable, diseased, homeless, LGBTQ, Middle Eastern, Palestinian, Jews, "gypsies" of the world, too, including Romany all kumpaniya, Sinti, so on and so forth (of course, adopt a draft, rough and incomplete, kind of like me)
in y/our
USA, China, Russia, FINLAND, all un/official nations on mother earth,
"community"
that you all claim to have adopted for the best as free.
