like pit of despair. (first card is a take away from NonViolent Communication series)
abuse, neglect, racism hurt like hell.
avoid touching words of mines except for ones like this,
well, that another example how plays out the abuse, neglect, racism.
half black, half white, i see it's not as black and white as that.
(card from The Courage to Heal Workbook: A Guide for Women and Men Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse
...weird but not how adoption as it stands historically through today is more akin to exploitation - slavery,
playing out like great devouring -rape- how Romany refer to what most others call the holocaust)
I'M SO CURIOUS how to adopt success for one/all transmuting violence cycles into love.
footnotes from m'self to ourselves,
Kaale/Mustalainen/Black/FinnishRomanyGypsyadoptedAmericanUSA*me
part of "my""werk" is "play to stay alive and thrive".
part of my exercise is to spit it out,
shit out this shit finally in the first place.
please don't tell me to refine refine refine thanks
for that superior, holocaustic train of thought
underscores extent of exclusion and slavery to this day thanks
adopt a draft, rough, incomplete, kind of like me,
god only knows if this is close to conveyance
and please pardon sarcasm, hate, intolerance, violence,
danger steer clear, that's my amygdala fearfully reacting to ongoing racism/loss/abuse/neglect.
and please pardon sarcasm, hate, intolerance, violence,
danger steer clear, that's my amygdala fearfully reacting to ongoing racism/loss/abuse/neglect.
what?
did u think that's who i truly am?
there's that erase-ism, racism again.
there's that erase-ism, racism again.
me, too; I kin relate.
I'm sorry. Please forgive me. And thank you. I love you all. and Ho'oponopono.
eye love u, Spirit, thank u for helping me draw the cards included in this post
pre-pre-exhibition)
we have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear;
we have received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry:
thanks god for helping us all ~Romans 8:15
as far as east is from west is how far transgression is removed from us ~Psalm 103:12
pre-exhibition)
on the alchemy of learning.....
Every human being adopts relevant knowledge, aspirations, skills, attitudes, behaviors, animals, babies, cultures, etc. for life needed, wanted, desired to overcome each/every loss, as life and that being keep changing here + there + beyond, while dancing with 6 predictable cards: guilt and shame, mastery and control, rejection, identity, intimacy, grief to overcome the accompanying predictable intolerance, hate, violence, delayed academic - cultural development.
EXHIBIT A)
Spirit, angels, guides, ancestors only provide in chunks,
rather than all at once,
partly in an effort to simplify, keep me aligned, sequenced, paced with love,
-like what human possibly can remember a complete set of step-by-step directions in one reading in order to follow through to completion with success, without taking any "wrong" turn?
-Like who can even get through that last sentence without a bit of wtf?
...any which way, some times i add scaffolding for fun, differentiation, easy up and down movement, like this is unfolding today...... pretend they are tarot, pick a card any card, or pick the one that resonates the most, pass on by without a word if this is not for you, u know what to do, keep playing YOUR cards for the life you want to live, keep shuffling constitution....
1. parents, not presidents, create democracies
2. What if parents, not presidents, create demoncracies ....HAHAHAHAHA funny typo, my fault, typing too fast....not unlike forced march or warpath but not at all what the...
democracies, and what needs impeachment is that mad fucking fighting flighty frozen spirit?
3. What if parents, not presidents, create democracies, and what needs impeachment is that mad fucking fighting flighty frozen spirit, not a person?
4. What if parents, not presidents, create democracies, and what needs impeachment is that sad gone mad fucking fighting flighty frozen amygdalan spirit, not a person?
5. What if parents, not presidents, create democracies, and what needs systemic impeachment is that sad gone mad fucking fighting flighty frozen amygdalan spirit within each talking head, not a person?
6. What if parents, not presidents, create healthy boundaries like democracies, and what warrants systemic deposition and impeachment is not a sentient being like a person, pooch, or pussy, but that sad gone mad, fucking, fighting, flighty, frozen amygdalan spirit within all talking heads, even the deaf, dumb and blind?
7. What if parents, not presidents, create democracies, and what warrants systemic cross-examination, deposition, impeachment is that sad gone mad fucking fighting flighty frozen amygdalan spirit within each talking head, not a person?
8. What if parents, not police n presidents, create democracies, and what warrants systemic arrest, cross-examination, deposition, impeachment is that sad gone mad fucking fighting flighty frozen amygdalan spirit within each talking head leading a charge, not an actual person?
9. What if parents, not police and presidents, create democracies, and what warrants systemic arrest, cross-examination, deposition, impeachment is that fearful, grief-struck-by-loss sad gone mad fucking fighting flighty frozen amygdalan spirit within each talking head leading a charge, not an actual person?
10. What if parents, not military police and presidents, create democracies, and what warrants systemic arrest, cross-examination, deposition, impeachment is that fearful, grief-struck-by-loss sad gone mad fucking fighting flighty frozen amygdalan spirit within each talking head leading a charge, not an actual person?
11. What if parents, not military police and presidents, create democracies, and what warrants systemic arrest, cross-examination, deposition, impeachment is that authoritative, fearful, grief-struck-by-loss sad gone mad fucking fighting flighty frozen amygdalan spirit within each talking head leading a charge, not an actual person?
then we might could still apply much of that infrastructure to help all left behind youth and families of universe, just in a very, very different manner....
like without all the left behind abused, neglected 19 year olds manipulated to sacrifice, to fucking fight to death, in name of we don't even know what for we are scared, overwhelmed, overextended, overtaxed by our vision
EXHIBIT B)
Thanku, Teal Swan, for your recent share, what a reminder for those in a safe space to make these spirited mental moves.
"Pretend you died yesterday. If you were given the opportunity to come back to life today, what would you now have the courage to do that you didn't have the courage to do before?" Teal Swan
Reminds me of much, like:
all the times I played variations of this card within our stacked decks to adopt success for one/all.
One of my nieces put together a keychain for me as a gift years ago, in which she placed a paper with Gandhi's words she had written: live as if you were to die tomorrow, learn as if you were to live forever.
très très passionante.
EXHIBIT C)
Thanku, The Holistic Psychologist, @the.holistic.psychologist, for your recent share, another sweet reminder.
"Forgive yourself for what you did when you were still living in survival mode." the holistic psychologist
Reminds me much, like:
forgive myself for what i do while still living in survival mode
...eye mean, maybe I manage to elevate bit by bit up out from the abyss
EXHIBIT D)
Thanku, The Holistic Psychologist, @the.holistic.psychologist, for your recent share describing the 4 phases in meme "The Stages of Spiritual Awakening", another another sweet reminder.
reminds me of much, like:
this has not made it into mainstream schools with devastating effects: holocaust - slavery.
Seriously.
If school was really for youth then they'd have end result as here, self created individuals instead of sheepish programmed people pushing our buttons.
Perhaps silver lining of pandemic protocols - home schools is that those youth and family with homes finally get a thing for which we beg: expanded time and space to be, dreaming dreamy dreams.
awe wonder what is the american dream.
proper English?
Around the world, an underlying issue becomes more apparent
as aliens & earthlings continue to step away from modern day slavery:
the vast majority of global education align with
needs, wants, desires of parent, teacher, business, government
over that of the student,
not only abusing + neglecting youth under guise of "for the best",
but also violently stealing free will,
instigating them to mirror madness,
while blaming, shaming, rejecting as culprit.
This is the mother father of terror reigns we kin halt.
On non-violence, truth, and his 9 other vows, Gandhi reminds:
home is first university and parents are teachers.
EXHIBIT E) Thanks Gillian Green and a The Giggle Box Project for the funny about the license plate "ANUSTART" with comment: to some this reads "a new start". to others it doesn't.
EXHIBIT F) Yesterday I ate no animal and it felt amazing. During 2018 emergency move I caved and began eating cow and pig again, some things I had given up ~2015 making space for streams of grace
EXHIBIT G)
opre Roma - rise up, human
just what doctor ordered
thank you, Vadim and Via Romen, for this sound healing
I love you all
Since meeting in 2012, i learned most the words to sing along with this Romany anthem initiated coincidentally just a few weeks before I'z adopted out in 1971 to proud citizens of another superior nation where Gypsy also have to hide to live, the singing gives me goose bumps![🦆]()
thank u for showing up, performing, offering sound guidance, inspiring harmony even though.
Opre Roma Rom Romni Romale Chavele Rise Up, Romany ~ Rise Up, Human, on this faerly clear channel for abused, neglected orphan adopted-and-not, and all their families, u know, Roma adopted-but-not into every nation on earth,
Please welcome,
virtuoso friends of mine, Vadim Kolpakov and Via Romen with Gelem Djelem,
to conduct next sound healing shift on this 21st century underground railroad.
What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, joy, peace on earth/beyond?
Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as you wish, mourn what is.
carry om, Love, go play with yourself
EXHIBIT H)
Glory B Alelujah
I have learned to love cleaning and clearing up in order to make room for streams of grace, even when that means dealing with dirt and tears.
~feb 2020, last shift at pizza place around the corner that I adored,
Finding myself in tears throughout the shift,
affirming after less than a year of trying, it's not safe for me to "go to work",
just as I had felt when I fled almost everything to save my life and find my heART ~2009.
eye hid in plain sight by cleaning the head and doing dishes as to not offend boss, coworkers, clients,
Some things are harder to believe than others.
You know.
Since 2009, not a brand or a biz, but an abused neglected orphan adopted-but-not raising awareness, "my""home" work on its own has not been earning recognition financially to survive much less thrive and I have felt reluctance through moral opposition to pimp it out and/or making it all pretty so people will want to adopt it.
cum on, now, for crying out loud and fuck's sake.
Perhaps I die from the ongoing abuse, neglect and racism looking like it's my own fault before accomplishing my missions.
i'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank u. I love u all.
thanks god for helping us every alien - human being adopt success transmuting violence cycles asap
so be it and so it was amen awomen om um hum aum
EXHIBIT I)
titles drafts for this post
1. PBFLT
2. Roma Cross Borders Establish Safe Sound Boundaries
3. Roma Crossing the Borders Establishing the Boundaries
4. Roma Crossing Borders Establish Boundaries?
5. Romni Crossing Borders Establishing Boundaries
Romany Ambassador Ian Hancock speaking at 2012 Roma: Crossing the Borders, U.S.A.'s first female Gypsy art, culture, and history exhibit hosted by Voice of Roma at the Petaluma Historical Museum in Northern California for extra fun pinpoint "my" art
EXHIBIT J)
on systemic abuse and neglect, erase-ism like fascim - racism, we know you are dying because you are killing us.
me, too?
i know you are but what am I?
rubber?
glue?
chicken?
egg?
whatever.
call back the troops; glory b, we have discovered we kin adopt success for one/all overcoming the violence breaking out around planet earth.
god bless u
salud
EXHIBIT K)
Some say the Sanskrit based Romani Chi'b word "korkoro" means "freedom", others say it means "alone".
Spoiler Alert: eye don't recommend war movies as a regular part of curriculum/programming to adopt success for one/all, yet Korkoro by Tony Gatliff is like no other, it's final lines possessing me to draw this card.
2020 Census:
unsafe for likes of me,
abused, neglected orphaned BIPOC Kale/Mustalainen/Black/FinnishRomany~Gypsy
"adopted""free""AmericanUSA".
I (s/he we they) desire inclusion without being raped, burned, assassinated, killing somebody else/self due to racism/slavery, gross misdiagnosis/mistreatment, a great devouring (rape)~O Baro Porrajmos, how Romany refer to the Holocaust, trickling down bloody effects to this day.
SO, we earn ph.d. in tolerance from where we hide, sit, lay, stand.
>>---> http://www.voiceofroma.com
>>---> WHY free Ph.D.? for all the times smart is struck senseless by loss and trauma.
>>---> https://gypsymythdebunked.blogspot.com/p/free-phd.html
Adoptee Gaslighting 102: "I'm not a racist, you are just a stupid, crazy, jerk."
That's a line from Hitler's book. If Romany were included in K-12 standards/books-life, we might've learned that lesson. Adoptee, gypsy, Gypsy, Romany, sometimes the same, other times lots of explaining.
>>---> https://rromanireparationsg.blogspot.com/2016/05/adoptee-gypsy-gypsyrromani-some-times.html
*pls respect my sensitive boundaries by witnessing without inserting yourself like a dick on my wall/space AND stop thinking about me in such a way that allows such dismissive treatment of me, with such lack of equity, dignity, justice thx.
I mean, of course, u all get to think/do whatever the fuck you want, but really, do u when it seems like systematically its at my/our expense and exclusion, and the other adoptees and poc's, Blacks of the world, African - Romany, BIPOCs, black sheep too?
how do you really want to think about and treat y/our people in the name of.........
how are you more attached to your thinking than people u consider to be crazy, dumb, evil? Careful, that's where Hitler and all the other amygdalas fall off the wagon.
How have you been playing fighting spirit as if its adoption spirit?
adoptee changes for nations and families to their delight, yet then 4s more likey to suicide, not to mention, lash out, homicide, overdose, flunk out of school, family, society grossly misdiagnosed/mistreated.
the way u think and act can change that holocaustic stat.
me, too.
>>---> https://gypsymythdebunked.blogspot.com/2020/06/insult-and-injury-amplify.html
we have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; we have received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry: thanks god for helping us all, even the loves cutting us off and telling us its our own faults as a response to our pleas for tolerance. Romans 8:15
>>---> https://rromanireparationsg.blogspot.com/2018/09/taking-care-of-business-in-flash.html
>>---> as far as east is from west is how far transgression is removed from us Psalm 103:12 amen awomen om
EXHIBIT L) FAER WARNING<TRIGGERed chitty chitty bang bang
Adoptee Gaslighting 102: "I'm not a racist, you are just a stupid, crazy, jerk."
That's a line from Hitler's book. If Romany were included in K-12 standards/books-life, we might've learned that lesson. Adoptee, gypsy, Gypsy, Romany, sometimes the same, other times lots of explaining.
>>---> https://rromanireparationsg.blogspot.com/2016/05/adoptee-gypsy-gypsyrromani-some-times.html
*pls respect my sensitive boundaries by witnessing without inserting yourself like a dick on my wall/space AND stop thinking about me in such a way that allows such dismissive treatment of me, with such lack of equity, dignity, justice thx.
I mean, of course, u all get to think/do whatever the fuck you want, but really, do u when it seems like systematically its at my/our expense and exclusion, and the other adoptees and poc's, Blacks of the world, African - Romany, BIPOCs, black sheep too?
how do you really want to think about and treat y/our people in the name of.........
how are you more attached to your thinking than people u consider to be crazy, dumb, evil? Careful, that's where Hitler and all the other amygdalas fall off the wagon.
How have you been playing fighting spirit as if its adoption spirit?
adoptee changes for nations and families to their delight, yet then 4s more likey to suicide, not to mention, lash out, homicide, overdose, flunk out of school, family, society grossly misdiagnosed/mistreated.
the way u think and act can change that holocaustic stat.
me, too.
>>---> https://gypsymythdebunked.blogspot.com/2020/06/insult-and-injury-amplify.html
we have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; we have received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry: thanks god for helping us all, even the loves cutting us off and telling us its our own faults as a response to our pleas for tolerance. Romans 8:15
>>---> https://rromanireparationsg.blogspot.com/2018/09/taking-care-of-business-in-flash.html
>>---> as far as east is from west is how far transgression is removed from us Psalm 103:12 amen awomen om
>>---> https://sites.google.com/site/gypsymythdebunked
Commercials for anti-depressants flown, especially after 6 pm, when vast majority of people on mother earth already have struggled through challenges and pains all day and just want to relax, be calm, full of peace and joy
reminds me of much
like how phar·ma·ceu·ti·cal
/ˌfärməˈso͞odək(ə)l/ companies prey on child - adolescent - adult left behind alone nursing wounds, abused, neglected, tired, meek, refuse.
Pls stop schooling us to believe we are clinically depressed when what we really are enduring is systemic abuse, neglect of which your fucked up nasty shit medicine is a part thx.
If Romany were included across curriculum in K-12 standards/books, we might could learn this lesson.
A 19th century shrink and a magistrate judged Romany: incurably mentally ill, therefore not in possession of life worth living, logic that guided and inspired 20th century individuals/regimes to use Romany as a test run to the Final Solution, a holocaustic train of thought that chugs on down the lines relatively unchecked to this day with indiscriminate disregard for life.
EXHIBIT M)
there go the woo-woo's,
how i call any vehicle with sirens screaming past the complex.
is that calling out mean, offensive, wrong?
well, in any case, G, this follows the woo-woo call:
"mind, body, speech in perfect one-ness, I send my heart along with the sound of the bell. may hearers awaken from forgetfulness and transcend all anxiety and sorrow."
so be it and so it was, glory b aleluja,
thanku, Thich Nhat Hanh (Thích Nhất Hạnh) and your bell mantra
EXHIBIT N)
Is it always sunny in Philadelphia?
Throw the apple in the basket.
Which class of yours was run almost exclusively by a substitute? 1987/8 Fairfax HS AP Spanish 4
I'm sorry for all the times I resemble the sub. like year i taught math. Please forgive me. Thanku. I love you all.
Welcome on this faerly clear channel for english-as-a-second-language-or-not, abused, neglected orphan adopted-and-not, and all their families, AP Bio, to conduct next sound healing shift on this 21st century underground railroad, and wait for the adoptee and gypsy to show before you go and bail.
What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, joy, peace on earth/beyond?
Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as you wish, mourn what is.
carry om, Love
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EXHIBIT O)"Make Sure You Know Your Classroom" Debbie Gibson's first song, age 5EXHIBIT P)
Thanku,
Spirit, angels, guides, ancestors, here for the highest love and light, Consciousness Evolution Journey, too
19 came up 3 times in a reading,four if you read 61 upside down,reminding me of much, like:
soldiers, Paul Hardcastle - 19 (Official Music Video)
ancestors
"my" Finnish birth paternal grandfather (participated in WW2),
AmericanUSA adoptive paternal grandfather (participated in WW2, would not speak of it),
AmericanUSA adoptive maternal grandfather (participated in WW2, would not speak of it),
adoptive AmericanUSA uncle/s (some participated in WW2),
other family/friends sucked into "military service" by Uncle Sam, like my students,
my Finnish brother (served "mandatory military service"),
my Finnish Romany brother (doctor's note to step around "mandatory military service"?),
my Finnish Romany nephew/s (1 kicked out of "mandatory military service"?),
all the 19 year olds sucked into soldierdom wiped off mother earth due to "for the best" war,and all others whose life was never the same after that fight,
affirming to melast two lines of my train of thoughtscontained within EXHIBIT A),
then we might could still apply much of that infrastructure to help all left behind youth and families of universe, just in a very, very different manner....like without all the left behind abused, neglected 19 year olds manipulated to sacrifice, to fucking fight to death, in name of we don't even know what for we are scared, overwhelmed, overextended, overtaxed by our vision