A Queen of Spades Calling a Spade a Spade

Not here to cater to your whims and desires, but perhaps I kin help you play your cards.
Seems past - present on mother earth: 24/7 parents ask each other - strangers what to do next.
Liberating m'self from modern day slavery, realized I cannot be a party to, follow, entertain the masses of authoritative, bewildered parents across cultures and continents confused to the point of marching forward madly fighting to the death about how to raise healthy kids-biz-government.
It is not that I lack compassion or soul.
It is that: that 24/7 apparent bottom - top - bottom mystification is how I was abused, neglected, orphaned initially in 1970 Finland and systemically ever since adopted to AmericaUSA 1971/2/5. 
Trigger Warning, rants steal our free will, devouring space and time like rapes raging thru private public blocks: parents converse willy nilly wtf to do with family-biz-spirit-nation, not cute or funny.
2020, eye see hear USA/beyond, family/nation fearful, grief-struck-by-loss, cycling fight-flight-freeze-fuck as when I began, adoption spirit overridden by amygdala within each talking head.
That hunk of m'data may be too much to take, especially if you are a parent. If you are child-less, maybe you decide to remain so, understanding more the cut-off-culture from whence we come.
What I mean to say about lack of respect is that:
I been expected to learn respect no matter what,
not to leave behind families/nations/strangers blacklisted by their mistakes.
... yet have not received the same return, labeled for behaving contrary to cut-off-culture curriculum and programming, like ass - bitch*in*heat - crazy - dumb - evil - incurably mentally ill - selfish....
Maybe you are familiar with how parent-prof play variations of "nobody's perfect" card to let self off the hook, yet then for kids - prez throw down the flip side "s/he will never learn; off with the head."
I sense parents so desperate for some one else to take over for a spell they'd sell their kids/spouses to the government. To cover up that abuse and neglect runs around a myth that Gypsies steal children.
What if to create secure home - land - space, immediately and next 3-25 years, with around the clock regularity like updates on rocket science + corona virus + weather + traffic, we'd house, feed, and induct parents of the world as master teacher mentors while their kids earn degree/s of choice from home?
What if infrastructure to fight "alien" - "enemy" adopted this spirited, joyful, merciful, peaceful approach for the bloody call to action finally has been translated: help people overcome predictable urge to cut off and kill?

EXHIBIT A) "A lot of ingredients go into a jerk." ~Emeril Lagasse, Caribbean Island Adventure episode

EXHIBIT B) Caught a glimpse of update about serving death penalty as justice to that the kid involved in Boston bombing (that we are incorrectly labeling adult so we can scapegoat him rather than take responsibility for the fact that we asked for it). Really, we, the people? this is y/our our justice? I protest. pls stop sacrificing and scapegoating under/privileged youth under 35 thx.

EXHIBIT C) caught a glimpse of an ad for marine now running for office slamming donald trump, assigning marine corps standards to prez - parent. Really? is this how we want to run family - nation? Like a drill sergeant who gets to talk to/about abused, neglected, cast-off's like they are a dumb ass who should know better? What if that is just another holocaustic, slave holding standard that leaves behind masses?

EXHIBIT D) Sealand

EXHIBIT E) What if technology in each person's hand, down to the art of the selfie, is a tool of tolerance and life ling learning that allows person/people to free their own will, develop academically - culturally as each wishes, taking back their own power and herstory/history?

EXHIBIT F) "best way to keep your pet healthy is to know it." commercials about how to adopt a dog seem popular fodder for folk, giving tells about comfort levels.

EXHIBIT G) "....left where it was tells it was abandoned...." alternative history show eye did not cite, for did not choose in the first place, just happened to catch a spell

EXHIBIT H) eye get distinct impression from certain family adoptive - inlaws that I am perceived as a freeloader who could earn my keep by explaining to nieces, nephews, cousins wtf is happening

EXHIBIT I) Phil Hartman with David Letterman 1982

EXHIBIT J) Old Crow Medicine Show Wagon Wheel

EXHIBIT K) Don't Want To Let You Go by Quiet Riot

EXHIBIT L) trine

EXHIBIT M) Fulbright-Hays

EXHIBIT N) What if scapegoating donald trump, or his opponents, neglects the mother father of all abuse: the vast majority of global education

EXHIBIT O) I strongly sense pandemic is yet another sign to figure out how to work from home instead of returning students under 35 back to school this fall like forcing a square peg in a round hole.What if our attendance & zero tolerance policies align more with slavery, the holocaust~a great devouring (rape), than tolerance? What about all the kids with handicaps (like race - homelessness - paralysis) for whom school was already unsafe? I'M SO CURIOUS how to adopt success for one/all transmuting violence cycles. thank god beLOVE boss taught me part of my job is to act a happy, broken record.Adoption Spirit Apothecary
















EXHIBIT P) stumbled across these lovespls don't judge entry points thxwelcome on this faerly clear channel for adoptee/family, Miracle Forest with Writer's Room ASMR Ambience | Wizard Edition, to conduct upcoming sound healing shift on this 21st century Underground Railroad. What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, Joy, peace on earth/beyond? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, dance, sing, as u will, mourn what is, careful for what u wish.

EXHIBIT Q) space and time to pussify lifefaer warning: pink pens involvedto own me, m'self, and I, s/he, we, they and not anybody else this card was inspired by friend, artist and activist, Anahita Mosallai and author Kara King and her book The Power of the Pussy

EXHIBIT R) We all strive to be. FB is not my classroom. But it is. My family and friends are not my students. But they are. In which case, since birth AND since 2009 slowly coming out of the closet as Romany, adoptee, and artist, I abused and neglected, left behind, let down my family, friends, students, dancing around cut-off-culture by which I'z abused, neglected, abandoned at birth and into which I'z embedded ~4 months old as adoptee. 2020, I understand more how come we cannot walk all together. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you all. On non-violence, truth and his 9 other vows, Gandhi reminds: home is first university and parents are its teachers. Even tho I am not a parent and we remain child-less by choice, some of my teaching certifications never expire. I'M SO CURIOUS how to adopt success for one/all transmuting violence cycles into love. What if one person at a time, we end hate, 'tis in the cards, and that's how constitutions are written? What if the alchemy of life long learning supports evolution and faith? Gypsy Myth Debunked



EXHIBIT S) Annette Åkerlundleading the way for Romany around the world, I met this artist, activist, friend at Gypsy Lore Conference 2009; she knows of my Finnish Romany clan. 2020, she's teaching Romany history course in which we kin enroll this autumn.For more classes from Anette, scroll back a few posts p.s. looking forward to when Romani flag makes it into emoji line-up and when I kin speak Romanes and Finnish, and 7 other languages at least. writing my way out of modern day slavery first, thank god Maslow's hierarchy of needs let's me off the hook, reminds me that reading, 'riting, 'rithmatic don't function so well when u are full up focused on saving yourself without security net of acceptance - belonging. Like Donald Trump, and his opponents, I missed lessons on Romany~Gypsy for they were excluded, I'z schooled to be racist white savior: left behind scads of youth-elder judged as dumb - evil, when really they were just down and out, without resources. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank u. I love u all. all together apart we overcome amen awomen om hum aum History of the Roma Open University, Distance Studies



EXHIBIT T) a conversation with Valery Novoselsky... That night you left us behind, I had wanted to go, too. The abuse/neglect/racism from family - friend - stranger is too much to bare. Combined with my violent reactions to that misdiagnosis and maltreatment, where I mirrored the madness, going to be with god seemed a sane way out of the on going holocaust into which i had been roped. Beholden to Brad, Bawkus, Betty, I managed to remain. The next day I woke up, and you were gone. I wondered how much what I had been feeling, you had been feeling, as well. I recognized myself in you, and also more parts of me that wanted to stay on planet earth and see thru my tolerance-inside-out mission. Spiritualist services offered grace and mercy in the following years; thanks for visiting me there affirming LOVE and the continuity of life. 2020 pandemic has further strengthened my resolve to see through our mission: transmuting violence into love adopting success for one/all. but then last night, I'z confused for a few moments when familiar feelings of deep despair overwhelmed me, taking me on a ride, before I recognized them from night you left. 4 years to the day since you left us behind for god. Thank u for doing your do's on earth and beyond, visiting, healing, inspiring, guiding, with your love light, reminding of sweet synchronicities and nurturing precious boundaries. Rest in love, light, power, and peace, Valery. we love you.opre rOM

EXHIBIT U) The Adoptee Times share about "complex trauma" reminds me of much like when loss lands u on the spectrum it feels like the holocaust all over again, o Baro Porajjmos~a great devouring (rape), where Romany deemed by judge and shrink as incurably mentally ill not in possession of life worth living and therefore perfect to use as test run for The Final Solution. Maybe if Romany, Sinti, all kunpaniya-tribes were included in k-12 standards/books/life that holocaustic train of thought would not trickle down into even the cleverest - not of crowds today. Adoptee, gypsy, Gypsy, Romany, some times the same, other times lots of explaining.

EXHIBIT V) ~quotes are approximate~

"I hate it when my family gets in trouble,"
Marion from says with light, Happy Days, season 5, episode 19, 'Spunkless Spunky'.
A little later when Howard questions, "Fonz? you let your dog watch T.V.?",
Arthur replies "Got to. They won't let him in the movies."

OMG Fonzie is a hero. Imaginary me has tattoo in his honor......

EXHIBIT W) How Adoptee and Family, Even Nation, Can Ensure Health and Wellness, Equity and Justice

EXHIBIT X) Better Off Dead?

EXHIBIT Y) Last Call

EXHIBIT Z) Last Last Call

EXHIBIT aa) Imagine: You are a Teacher of Teens in AmericaUSA

EXHIBIT bb) For One and All, even the seemingly apparently inferior and evil

EXHIBIT cc) THE ADOPTION PAPERS

EXHIBIT dd) The Left Behind Standard

EXHIBIT ee)  Safety Meetings a-dopt a-draft