What If Knowledge Eradicates "Evil"? What If Wisdom Transmutes Violence?

when I fled almost everything to save my life, 2009 around this time of year, 
2 things I did: 
1) attend Gypsy Lore Society annual meeting (which happened to be in Helsinki, Finland) 
to learn more about my heritage (because, Romany-Sinti, all kumpaniya-tribes, have been excluded from life AND K-12 standards/books in nation-states around mother earth, so I knew very little and was suffering from ignorance, intolerance, hate, violence, Romaphobia/antiGypsyism, delayed academic - cultural development, systematically left behind without tools of knowledge to eradicate "evil" and wisdom to transmute violence);


2) then visited with my birth families, Finnish And Finnish-Romany. 
Have not been back to Finland since then, u know, inter-continental travel is not as simple as it appears.
 (i snapped pic of 11th Pres. of Finland (2000 - 2012), Tarja Halonen, opening 2009 GLS conference.) 
First visit to Finland since 1970 birth, but only birth ma's side, was 1998. 
Second and third visits to Finland I met my Finnish-Romany fam, too: 2000, 2002. 
Talk amongst yourselves: Unless they are dead, when is the last time u saw your birth father and his family, like your sibs, nieces, nephews, cousins, aunts, uncles? Your birth ma and her family, like sibs, cuzns, antis, unks? 
We have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; we have received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry: thanks god for helping us all ~Romans 8:15. 
















EXHIBIT A) fb memory 24 Aug 2015 with 3 "pasi" pics... This morning I pick up my Finnish Passi, I feel adoption issues, guilt and shame prevalent, guilt maybe for being wrong human at birth to daily Stoopid mistakes I make. Shame, I don't even know all of my families names or languages and even when I do it's hard to communicate truths that maybe they think I don't love them. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, I try to abide and censor, but then I have a hard time thinking straight, and I act skewed, like a attention deficit bipolar deprespoid, thanks goodness now I know I'm not all that ADHD*biPol*dep stick , I'm just knob adopted in a world that misunderstands, Love. Daily adoption issues are triggered, yes, and reaction seems perhaps so intensely inflamed, well because it's a pile up you see.....easier to take good care and end standard reign of terror when you know with what you are dealing. 
#AdoptionIssues #daily #triggers #wait #time #compost #crap #abandon #GuiltAndShame #notPeople #peace

EXHIBIT B) fb memory 24 Aug 2015 with pic of salt, pepper, and EVOO plated... Hard to talk about, we'd rather not, but reality it's been 61 days since my lover got his bell rung. thank god he's breathing playing walking talking smiling amidst head trauma and post traumatic stress syndrome healing, extra basic slow roll we try to go, taking assessments and inventories, healing therapies, mostly from imperfect me. #salt #pepper #plate #EVOO #lime #good #time #space #regenerate #MindOverMatter

EXHIBIT C) fb memory 24 Aug 2015 with pic of pound cake... Yes, most moments but not all, I am able to help my husband these days, some times, I totally fail, in epic hideous heinous assholio form, stress accident triggers my adoption issues and I am learning to suck it up and send it back to the universe to burst beautiful even quicker. What used to take years now takes moments most days of the week. Miracles happen, I have learned to believe, and sincere apologies and healthy sweet treats in the MEANtime makes nice. thank you for your loving prayers, like it's already been done, yes, miracles happen daily, yo yo yo amen Amin OM
#blueberry #blackberry #raspberry #kosher #pound #cake #honey #sugar #mighty #night #love #slow #roll

EXHIBIT D) ☕️ witnessed electric blue 2020 challenger just a cruisin'🌊when freedom means same to Blacks - Whites🐵🙊🙉🙈and when it doesn't 🛎Helping us clear and clean up the mystery to allow for streams of grace, please welcome on this faerly clear channel for adoptee/family, John Mellencamp with Pink Houses, to conduct upcoming sound healing shift on this 21st century Underground Railroad. What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, Joy, peace on earth/beyond? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, dance, sing, as u will, mourn what is, careful for what u wish🔮

EXHIBIT E) Last few words of exhibit a remind me of sideways tv adoption ad eye witnessed the other day and maybe noted in previous blog, something to the effect of "the better you know your dog, the better you are to take care of it." Reminds me how common core cut off culture is more comfortable talking adoption in relation to beasts than babies.

EXHIBIT F) stoopid mistakes in exhibit a also reminds me of a few other chunks of m'data Poem...Taboo Artist

let's just track a few mistakes, shall we, for fun and game, shits and giggles.....

hmmm, perhaps i meant to say grey instead of trey? Journal of an Ordinary Pylgrym - RESURRECTED btw, just bc you are free to leave running commentary does not mean I am beholden to respond.

ummm.... testing, samples, trial runs, failed experiments Right this Rrom ~ Confessions of an International Adoptee​, 2nd Friday of November 2014

hum, what's happening here??? Right this Rrom - August 2015 mother of god, i love you, thanku

of course, there is more... 108 Adventures, Friends, Names, and Stories of Pylgrrom Stevens Mirič - DRAFT o me o my mirič!

u crack me up in a way that puts me back together again thank u god Deviate for Perfect Law of Liberty: LOVE WOW

EXHIBIT G) 🌊when freedom means same to Blacks - Whites🐵🙊🙉🙈and when it doesn't 🛎Helping us clear and clean up the mystery to allow for streams of grace, please welcome on this faerly clear channel for adoptee/family, Gogol Bordello with Transcontinental Hustle, to conduct upcoming sound healing shift on this 21st century Underground Railroad. What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, Joy, peace on earth/beyond? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, dance, sing, as u will, mourn what is, careful for what u wish🔮
EXHIBIT H) Thích Nhất Hạnh's bell mantra: mind, body, speech in perfect one-ness, i send my heart along with the sound of the bell. may hearers awaken from forgetfulness and transcend all anxiety and sorrow.