Maybe u seen m'claim, that I know why the toddler - teen - terrorist - tyrant rage. Loss.
What most delays and obstructs learning and leading? Loss.
What most delays and obstructs living and loving? Loss.
U know u live in an authoritative and militarized nation state when on Sunday morning show the 10 am feel good story is cute ww2 Vet, running across country in his rainbow headband, saying he'll die with his running shoes on before getting a pacemaker. Talk about propaganda of family, business, church, government amongst yourselves, perhaps focus on how women and children get suckered and taken like doctors' lollipops.
ooo, lemme start pls thx. Reminds me of 2 days ago, (heel heal post), reflecting upon Rhode Island PBS commercial featuring a little bright eyed blond boy under 5, parents so, so proud he was inspired by PBS to meet a war vet, AND relieved to not have to teach history of which they know so little. i'z more suited to be a P.E. teacher, thank god for directing me to become history teacher, learning me more over the years with the local/global adolescents i taught on world history, americanUSA history (latino, asian, african american history too), economics, government. On Holy Wars, Striving, Applying, Struggling, and Persevering. anyhow, by age 25, I'z more like 15, proud to know how to chug, suck, blow, fuck, shoot gun, fight like man, he/art minus the art, slave to love accepted, blocked from much such as crying, talking back, Finnish + Romany birth family. What? I said too much? Oops, pardon me, my boundaries know an end, begin from the last sentence.
International Adoptee I am, Traveling Tolerance Exhibit Am I.
footnotes from m'self to our'selves, Kaale/Mustalainen/Black/FinnishRomanyGypsyme part of "my""werk" is "play to stay alive n thrive". please don't tell me to refine refine refine thanks for that superior, holocaustic train of thought underscores the extent of exclusion slavery to this day; and that my exercise is to spit it out this shit finally in the first place. adopt a draft, rough, incomplete, kind of like me, god only knows if this is close to conveyance and please pardon sarcasm, hate, intolerance, violence, danger steer clear, that's my amygdala fearfully reacting to ongoing racism/loss/abuse/neglect. what? did u think that's who i truly am? there's that erase-ism, racism again. me, too; I kin relate. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. And thank you. I love you all, Spirit, and Ho'oponopono.
pre-exhibition) Nobody besides me, especially not adoptees and their adoptive - birth parents/families, want to go to my virtual adoption spirit apothecary. I got that before erection, part of the reason it stands.
EXHIBIT A)
data drives dialogue....
Upon reviewing adoption stats shared by singer and activist, Ferera Swan, as sad and heart wrenching as the adoption story has played out for abused, neglected orphans, I feel blessed to be alive still, and able to verbalize somewhat my reflections.....
It's not the Gypsies stealing away kids before governments do at 18 for tight fight n fuck. Small wonder 3 nations that adopt majority of mother earth's orphans -US, Russia, China- fight each other hi and lo for dominance, legitimacy, prestige, superior ratings. This is the superiority complex we thought we escaped after the Civil War, and World War 2, andandand a fine not gross change of approach makes a world of difference in an instant. One person at a time, all together, apart, We end hate, 'tis in the cards. Carry om, go play with yourself now.
Warning, Ferera's stats, adoption truths, tore my heart reading then typing , it may hurt yours, too.
FACT: Adoption is a multibillion dollar industry rooted in the unethical practice of separating children from their families for profit.
FACT: Closed adoption is unspeakably cruel and incredibly unethical.
FACT: Open adoption may lessen aspects of trauma related to secrecy...not to be used as a justification to deny the first fact.
EXHIBIT B)
Reflections of mines after viewing author and activist, Teal Swan's recent share, "Cancel culture is not actually about justice. It is about control. People use cancelation to force conformity to ideals."
There is a rape before the rape. People's boundaries have been raped for so long in the name of love, canceling is a way to defend without actually confronting the primal wound. Reminds me how I was abandoned as a newborn and systemically after adoption, embedded as an adoptee into the same cut off culture that abandoned me as a BIPOC newborn. 2009 i began dancing away from the cut off culture, that cancel culture, unable to be a party to, entertain, follow such shenanigans.