A practicing psychic medium, some times I study with "The Ghostwhisperer". Season 4 Episode 5 "Bloodlines", predictably-but-not trickles down into Episode 6 "Imaginary Friends and Enemies". Pushing a few of my loss buttons: losing in certain ways dignity, equity, justice, parent after parent after parent after parent after parent after parent, family, friends, even husband. I don't share for you to take care, but rather as part of my work of publically sharing authentic adoptee voice. so, in bits in pieces.. chunk 1 mother, her fiance, and company are running around screaming for daughter who mother left untended, then blamed for kid for being unruly......reminds me The ongoing abuse and neglect is such that, please-thank you, reserve screaming for emergencies, not to call kids to supper, in from playing, and/or to do your bidding, as we see/hear modeled throughout common core media. stop judging/treating your child-student's acting out as tantrums/bad/weak-child-unable-to-get-with-the-program, please-thank you, but rather see/hear with compassion the acting out as cries for help from sweet love experiencing inexpressable duress/frustration. In other words, their loss is not yours, stop superiorly judging/treating it as such; instead, take the time to heal from your loss which their loss is triggering in you. chunk 2 Distracted mother more focused on getting re-married than her now-psuedo-adoptee-girl "I can't take my eyes off her for a minute.""She's not usually like this." .......reminds me how often i see/hear mothers so broken, confused, distracted, entitled, foisting parental sacrifice onto the child, expecting the child to suck it up and parent the parent // to how my BIPOC life began orphaned by parenting like this, and then systemically as adoptee. Please thank you, stop judging/treating your child-student's wandering curiosity as problematic, instead affirm as right on course. Perhaps the reason you think child-student's behavior is problematic has more to do with absent-minded cut-of-culture to which majority adheres than that child or you. chunk 3 Scene with the Ghostwhisper crying to her husband, asking to adopt if their pregnancy didn't work reminds me of the other spectrum of adoption, how come so many people, including my parents, adopt: their bodies cannot produce all the healthy babies that their needy family deeply desires. World Conference on Population Conference of 1974 shows how adults around the world cater to just these types of situations, part of how adoption is more akin to exploitation - slavery, child's free will robbed with "this is for the best, trust us, we love u + so did they." It reminds me how i can no longer buy these lines, how having a child is not a need, but a want, where data shows majority of kids AND pod-mates are cut out of the equation, success only adopted for the fucking mother but not, you see/hear the mothers raging, hogging public/private spheres like the father of all authoritarians. I don't see the fucking reign of terror like the others. The conversation about "having/adopting animals, babies, cultures" wants/needs to change, for all the babies, abused, neglected, orphaned POC and not, especially the one left behind in each of our hearts. On non-violence, truth and his 9 other vows, Gandhi reminds: home is first university and parents are the teachers. footnotes from m'self to our'selves, Kaale/Mustalainen/Black/FinnishRomanyGypsyme part of "my""werk" is "play to stay alive". please don't tell me to refine refine refine thanks for that superior, holocaustic train of thought underscores the extent of exclusion slavery to this day; and that my exercise is to spit it out this shit finally in the first place. adopt a draft, rough, incomplete, kind of like me, god only knows if this is close to conveyance and please pardon sarcasm, hate, intolerance, violence, danger steer clear, that's my amygdala fearfully reacting to ongoing racism/loss/abuse/neglect. what? did u think that's who i truly am? there's that erase-ism, racism again. me, too; I kin relate. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. And thank you. I love you all, Spirit, and Ho'oponopono. EXHIBIT A) ad for new game "June's Journey" targets people like the mothers in my life, but to me, these murder mysteries have lost their allure for each and every time, at the end of the trail, eye find an abused, neglected, orphan adopted of sorts. EXHIBIT B) 3 Aug 2020 Domino, ocean under moon, eye change my life to suit your mood. Please welcome on this fairyly clear channel for adoptee and family, Smooth with Santana and Rob Thomas, to conduct next sound healing shift in this 21st century underground railroad. What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = joy, peace, earth/beyond? Danger steer, breathe easy, celebrate, as u wish, mourn what is. EXHIBIT C) 2 Aug 2020 Classic, Please welcome on this fairyly clear channel for adoptee and family, Caucasian - gypped - Gypsy Kings and The Big Lebowski, to conduct next sound healing shift in this 21st century underground railroad. What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = joy, peace, earth/beyond? Danger steer, breathe easy, celebrate, as u wish, mourn what is. EXHIBIT D) 2 Aug 2020 salon talk. I seriously object returning the masses back to school under current state of affairs, and suggest instead: take next few years to adopt home school work models that raise instead of enslaving student (as it stands now where majority of ed emotionally rapes, meeting nation, business, parent, teacher wants rather than student's blessed dreams). I'm not here to cater to your whims and desires, but i kin help you play your cards. Of course, I reserve the right to refuse service. On nonviolence, truth and his 9 other vows Gandhi reminds: home is first university and parents are its teachers. Talk about space force; for parentteachers and their family, let's install Teacher Induction Program like corona virus updates, paying/leading parents to transmute evil into love, earning free ph.d. in tolerance by the time the kid earns a higher education of its choice from a tone, unbroken home. https://sites.google.com/view/adoptionspiritapothecary/steps-to-take EXHIBIT E) 2 Aug 2020 salon talk. ~2009 I fled career in teaching and almost everything else to save my life and find my heART; ffwd 2020, pandemic plus affirms for the likes of me: home school. Abused, neglected BIPOC orphaned and adopted for more, now I mother father m'self and from a safe*sound distance pray for miracles beyond belief for us all. https://sites.google.com/site/gypsymythdebunked <<< for life worth living, to raise awareness about adoption, Roma, life worth living, a free 21st century capacity building experiential for positive individual and collective tolerant human identity. (I do not know how come font color changed, and this interface god bless it) EXHIBIT F) 2 Aug 2020 please welcome on this fairyly clear channel for adoptee and family, Van Morrison with Domino, to conduct next sound healing shift on this 21st century underground railroad. What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, joy, peace on earth/beyond? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as u wish, mourn what is. I am that and that I am, not the same as when I began glory b domino EXHIBIT G) 2 August 2020 salon talk. cabbage patch come with more back story than I did. I don't want to get mad or fight about it for that breaks down precious health AND is how my life began orphaned BIPOC and systemically ever since adopted. Not seeking your sympathy or love, but chanelling for myself dignity, equity, health, joy, justice, liberty, peace, tolerance glory b alelujah https://sites.google.com/view/adoptionspiritapothecary/home EXHIBIT H) 2 Aug 2020 fair warning >>---> this wants to be a blog post but here i am cuz google blog changed its interface and i have yet to learn how to navigate, as some learning/logic takes backseat and/or jumps ship when you saving your life, see Maslow's hierarchy of needs.>>---> Seeing/hearing "Dragon"'s "physical separation" from space station reminded me of the relinquishment process in adoption, then hearing about "the umbilical" sealed that deal, the "god speed" at the end for me sent all that shift "through the roof and underground". Seeing/hearing woman and East Indian?English Language Learner? story-telling play by play reminded me of government military business propaganda that targets abused, neglected left behind children and colorful-and-not-minorities to do out of this world dirty work under the guise of "good""family""fun""fighting for freedom" manifest destiny style. We have not managed to adopt success for one and all on earth. Forging into space under these circumstances amounts to rape, mirrors life-alienating madness, fucking off without providing sustainable solution, effectively stealing masses of precious energy and free will, systemic abuse, neglect, racism condoned to adopt success for only the select few who manage to behave a certain way. I vote to save earth instead of abandoning it like my then adolescent birth mother was forced by her sick, tired, erase-ist parents to abandon me. It turns out that what we thought was for the best is not, especially when it comes to adopting animal, baby, culture, space. Mercy, grace, tolerance might be if all the government military police businesses transformed into Joy-Peace-Force with mission to adopt success for one and all, not just the non-terrorists. https://youtu.be/8lPkVadp8mg EXHIBIT I) 2 Aug 2020 fleeing almost everything to save my life and find my heart, wish I had been able to save d''twins too, but stress was too much and I, it, euthanasia killed them. This old corner reminds me of our new space where we been mourning them and familyfriendworkplay losses while managing to live life Happy even tho knocked down and excluded. Eye broke into tears after most recent emergency move last October realizing there Betty would die, less than a year after her twin, Bawkus. They were not our children; we never "adopted" them. They became beloved friends who taught us more on dignity, equity, love, Joy, justice, peace, tolerance. EXHIBIT J) 2 Aug 2020 11 years ago today I shared on FB "Sinti/Roma Genocide Remebrance Day" https://www.instagram.com/p/CDWb3s8FsBq/?igshid=1t8yzipb0af99 EXHIBIT K) 1 Aug 2020 brilliant. please welcome on this fairyly clear channel for adoptee and family, Ted, for next sound healing shift in this 21st century underground railroad. What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, joy and peace on earth and beyond? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as u wish, mourn what is. P.S. "Gypsies: the Hidden Americans" by Anne Sutherland EXHIBIT L) 1 Aug 2020 please change name of Hanging Tree Rd, Hillsville, VA thanks EXHIBIT M) 1 Aug 2020 not brand, nor biz, but abused, neglected BIPOC orphan adopted for more, overcoming intolerance, hate, violence, developmental delays/obstructions bred from ongoing loss, while also raising awareness; as u will co-llaborate, co-mmission, co-nsult https://sites.google.com/view/adoptionspiritapothecary/forward EXHIBIT N) 1 Aug 2020 💌10 Million Roma/Gypsy=10 Million Stories👄mine's 1👣walk with me a spell 🔮don't trip when I fall🐍 EXHIBIT O) 1 Aug 2020 on boundaries and vows of silence, ".....I close my mouth and learn to listen..." more n more shut the front door; EEE skeeters about dusk dawn whenever they can in "our" neck of woods. Please welcome, up next on this fairyly clear channel for adoptee and family, Rising Appalachia with Resilient, to conduct next sound healing shift on this 21st century Underground Railroad. What if Mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, Joy and peace on earth and beyond? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as you wish, mourn what is. thanks god for helping us all glory b alelujah EXHIBIT P) 31 July 2020 praying for miracles beyond belief for Romany and non around planet earth and throughout the universe...mutliverses??? https://www.eurozine.com/roma-communities-never-got-a-break EXHIBIT Q) 31 July 2020 on "my" Romany heritage: for first time, summer 2000 I met my birth father, member of "Kale" kumpaniya/tribe, commonly called in Finnish "Mustalainen", as in "Black"; he is Finnish-Gyspy, Gypsy as in Romany, not as in a "boho" way of life. He was kept in the dark about my existence and adoption for a spooky spell. Also Romany, his deceased parents, and 9 siblings one of whom was murdered defending a Romni (Gypsy woman) ~2011, may the múle/dead rest in peace and power, and those of us left behind be comforted. Also Romany, my 4 cousins, their kid/s. And my 3 siblings, their 7 kids, their 3? grandkids, many of whom have shared their own experiences with Romaphobia/racism, some of whom I sideways shared one experience against 14 year old niece while visiting in 2009 after attending Gypsy Lore Conference to learn more about our heritage (2009 was our third and last meeting, second in 2002....also meetings with maternal Finnish birth family then for extra layers to digest). maybe there are more Romany family there in that immediate but not family "of mines", still I learn at delayed rate for so slow is development and much is the risk with ongoing abuse/neglect/racism. Please welcome now on this fairyly clear channel for adoptee and family, Kai Tanner, my brother, and Rakastajat Teatteri, theatre company which he co-created, with Black, Blacker, Romany/ Musta, Mustempi, Romani, to conduct next sound healing shift in this 21st century underground railroad. What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, joy and peace on earth and beyond? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as you wish, mourn what is. https://youtu.be/Av12a0LxFxM EXHIBIT R) 30 July 2020 I know it is not all about me. I don't want to press charges and punish for that's not justice served, does not solve the problem, mimmicks the madness that began my life orphaned as a BIPOC fetus and systemically ever since then. What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, Joy and peace on earth and behind? On nonviolence, truth and his 9 other vows, Gandhi reminds: home is first university and parents are the teachers. I see/hear, to release worry and align missions, We need STAT more than covid updates a Teacher Induction Program to sway parent led to believe that they have to be strict based on their kids behaviors, away from that holocaustic, slave-holding behavior modification/authoritarian model to adopt success for one and all. U know parents, even the heartiest were abused, too, generational curse older than adoption we kin transmute to love. the more people the quicker shift happens glory b alelujah ~as far as east is from west is how far transgression is removed from us. Psalm 103:12 ~We have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; we have received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry: thanks god for helping us all, even the child abusers in each and every one of us Romans 8:15 https://www.wbay.com/2020/07/30/donald-windey-sentenced-to-17-years-in-prison-for-abusing-adopted-children EXHIBIT S) 30 July 2020 by "tantrums" we mean "asking for help only way we can at that moment" even if u think we should know better, like how to use our words by now. Now is not the time for tit for tat EXHIBIT T) 30 July 2020 "writing is my path away from modern day slavery" i drew on green card around turn of the century, surprising even myself. Another draw was "I am artist", finally committed to playing my cards instead of ones given to me that were leading me to hurt people, places, things, even myself. 12 years later, within California's first free public library converted into Petaluma Historical Museum, I'z blessed by Spirit, Voice of Roma, and World Artists' Initiative-Khetanes, to co-exhibit in U.S.A.'s first Roma women art, culture, history show, which also received congressional recognition AND earned April as Roma month in the town of Petaluma, on top of offering stage to living legend, Romany ambassador, Professor Ian Hancock. https://gypsymythdebunked.blogspot.com/2020/07/i-know-why-terrorist-rages_30.html EXHIBIT U) 30 July 2020 Showing up. Please welcome, up next on this fairyly clear channel for adoptee and family, Rising Appalachia with Step Up, Speak Out, to conduct next sound healing shift on this 21st century Underground Railroad. What if Mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, Joy and peace on earth and beyond? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as you wish, mourn what is. https://youtu.be/xy6qNPoluPU EXHIBIT V) 30 July 2020 beloved love bullying/gaslighting me yesterday before GYO appointment reminds that the systemic racism endured since before 1970 birth to this day is such that at times in the face of such adversity I cannot respond fairly within a shift, day - three, week, month, year, decade. Not only does ongoing abuse/neglect hurt, it delays/obstructs my development academically - culturally. In other words, I am slow from constantly being broken, not because I'm crazy, lazy, dumb; not thicker skin but extra safe, sound time and space are special needs of mine as an abused, neglected, orphaned bipoc newborn adopted into parallel "for the best" superior holocaustic cut-off-culture that cast me off initially. I'M SO CURIOUS how to adopt success for one and all (instead of just for the select few who manage to behave) while transmuting violence cycles into love. https://youtu.be/N6uEMOeDZsA EXHIBIT W) 30 July 2020 On pussy power & a stream of income friend got me to consider since fleeing almost everything to save my life: just caught a whiff of my underpants; that'd fetch a stiff price. EXHIBIT X) 28 July 2020 Glimpsing Kelly and Ryan's show (snappy shirts and R's hair ❤), reminds me this is an era of loss where we all are witnessing extensively trained - uneducated people moving forward in amygdala mode as if that is their "right" mind, authoritative, fearful, grief-struck-by-loss, cycling fight-flight-freeze-fuck unable to summon adoption spirit magic, forcing square pegs in round holes, enslaving like devouring holocaustic rape. On nonviolence, truth, and his 9 other vows, Gandhi reminds: home is first university and parents are the teachers. I wish we could pay parents to stay home and raise their kids, and supply them with daily teaching induction program like we are doing covid updates so they could rest easy, heal, and do what they set out to in the first place, adopt success for one and all, maybe even earn them all a free ph.d in adoption-free will-joy-justice-lifelonglearning-life worth living-peace-tolerance for accomplishing the mission. We have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; we have received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry: thanks god for helping us all. Romans 8:15 https://sites.google.com/view/adoptionspiritapothecary/free-will-courses EXHIBIT Y) 28 July 2020 warning, this next movie contains emotional-physical-sexual child abuse/neglect, abstract adoptee in a child bride age 5, gypsy, and murderous takes of Kali. Please welcome, up next on this fairyly clear channel for adoptee and family, Bulbbul, to conduct next sound healing shift on this 21st century Underground Railroad. What if Mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, Joy and peace on earth and beyond? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as you wish, mourn what is. Just don't kill any body any more for they are just hurt and acting out their abuse and then so are you pls thx. And if u find yourself judging harshly India and/or people/person for child abuse, that's not a sign to believe everything you think but a red flag to check yourself, the abuse you taken and given without admitting. 🔄🔃💟☮️✝️☪️🕉☸️✡️🔯🕎☯️♊️🛐⛎♈️♉️♊️♌️♌️♍️♎️♏️♐️♑️♒️♓️🆔⚛️♻️🔱 https://youtu.be/4MGReT9-cAg EXHIBIT Z) 28 July 2020 when u speak up at early age against abuse and you're told "That's not abuse. That's love." and so you grow up fucked. Unfucking myself while still getting fucked for the past decade after 40 years of that nonsense, hoping for domino effect. extra credit 28 July 2020 identity theft stops when we stop stealing identities, spirit whispered in my ear after eye saw fear mongering ad for ID theft protection ~23 June 2020. hadn't seen Identity Thief at that point, but had my identity stolen in un/usual ways, in distant/recent past. On this fairly clear channel for adoptee and family, please welcome, Jason Bateman and Melissa McCarthy with Identity Thief, to conduct next sound healing shift in this 21st century underground railroad. While I laughed, also cried, and the ending left me behind, like, really? this is justice, peace and joy for our abused, neglected orphans adopted but not, and for their "adopted" - "birth" families? Like pig in a pen, locking myself up now before anybody else does, in the adoption spirit apothecary of my mind. u kin read 4 July 2016 shitty draft of article "Better Off Dead?" alternatively titled "How Adoptee and Family, Even Nation, Can Ensure Health and Wellness, Equity and Justice" and released 3 days prior https://rromanireparationsg.blogspot.com) What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, joy and peace on earth and beyond? What if untreated loss within family - justice systems instigate and perpetuate intolerance, hate, and violence while stunting academic - cultural development? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as you wish, mourn what is. https://youtu.be/x8ZI0H3_tdU
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