I don't have enemies, just family/friends taking out their grief on me, and calling that "for the best". This is another way adoptees are expected to carry baggage of one family after another like a slave, we don;t get to complain, haven't you noticed how you shut us down, telling us to be more grateful, respectful.
Boundaries, I don't wanna gossip about you/r birth-adoptive aninmal-child's birthdays-breakdowns-friends-school-job-wedding, the weather, the president, the government, the terrorists, the Independence Day celebrations.
I wanna talk about we, the people, especially loves admitting openly "I was never abused" and/or loves refusing yet to admit anything, how we justify constituting intolerant, hateful, violent personal - professional protocols - social systems, upholding standards of operation that systematically leave behind tired, wretched, huddled young - old mass yearning to breathe free, while declaring the opposite.
Even tho Civil War - WW2 won for tolerance, these righteous family - friends - professionals feel free to think me/we crazy, lazy, dumb, evil, hater, excluding me/us like it's my/our choice/fault, not their racism.
Adopted into same cut-off-culture that orphaned me when i was less than days old (even most dogs get 8 weeks with their bio ma), I was razed to do that without a choice, free will robbed for the systemic abuse/neglect since before birth (u have heard how fetus feel throughout ma-pussy-internment).
Working No Child Left Behind and volunteering Southeastern European Decade of Romani inclusion showed me more the err of my/our ways.
I cannot entertain, follow, be a party to, don't want to fight for now i see that is how i was orphaned initially and systemically ever since by self-selected parent - professional beholden to care but too tired. "A conclusion is the place where you got tired of thinking," Steven Wright reminds. I ain't got time for this, can't u see how hard I work for u, i got my own shit? b grateful, respect, quit acting like an ass, because i said so and I'm the...................................superior-in-charge.
WE NEED LOVE TROUBLE LESS glory b alelujah. without intolerance, hate, violence please immediately/continually discredit superiority complexes in every block/talking head on planet earth thank you none but ourselves can free our minds so be it and so it was
Forgive for they/we know not what they/we do, We been schooled by amygdala's cut off culture and its fighting spirit to alienate life left, right, front, center, violently adopting success for only the chosen few who manage to behave and appear a certain way, autocracy - "democracy" around planet earth AS IF THAT IS ADOPTION SPIRIT.
we have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; we have received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry: thanks god for helping us overcome loss to adopt success for one and all while simultaneously transmuting violence cycles, amen AWOMEN om. Romans 8:15
as far as east is from west is how far transgression is removed from us Psalm 103:12
On non-violence, truth, and his 9 other vows, Gandhi reminds, "Home is the first university and its parents are the teachers." I sense family friends cannot get over the GUILT AND SHAME card that predictably flips out in overcoming racism, so they just keep on keeping on, doing what they do, and so abuse/neglect/racism, leaves behind me systematically still, because they feel so shitty guilty and ashamed and don't want to show their face. me, too.
Without this luxury and privilege that family - friends possess, to just not deal and leave behind a person, teachers committed to leave behind nobody, young - old, are not allowed to leave behind any student FOR ANY REASON. If the teacher justifies leaving behind a student, the teacher fails, losing prized possession of self-selected position, and the student, well, that poor student, un/official adoptee, is 4x more likely to suicide, not to mention lash out, homicide, overdose, flunk out of family - society grossly misjudged/mistreated by even the teacher.
we have been training our people the reverse, raping - scapegoating youth under 35. I been apologizing for my being and expression since birth.
Recognize that it's your turn now to take responsibility for your accruing loss pile-up instead of projecting, kicking another dog, taking out your grief on others. Apologize, Love, start with your self.
What if mercy jubilee + evolution = justice, joy, peace on earth?
Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as you wish, mourn what is.
footnotes from m'self to our'selves,
Kaale/Mustalainen/Black/FinnishRomanyGypsyme
part of "my""werk" is "play to stay alive".
Kaale/Mustalainen/Black/FinnishRomanyGypsyme
part of "my""werk" is "play to stay alive".
please don't tell me to refine refine refine thanks
for that superior, holocaustic train of thought underscores the extent of exclusion - slavery to this day;
and that my exercise is to spit it out this shit finally in the first place.
adopt a draft,
rough, incomplete,
kind of like me,
god only knows if this is close to conveyance
and please pardon sarcasm, hate, intolerance, violence,
danger steer clear,
that's my amygdala fearfully reacting to ongoing racism/loss/abuse/neglect.
what? did u think that's who i truly am? there's that erase-ism, racism again. me, too; I kin relate.
I'm sorry.
Please forgive me.
And thank you.
I love you all,
Spirit,
and
Ho'oponopono.
EXHIBIT A)
GUILT AND SHAME
card
predictably flips out,
1 of the 6 with which each human dances while overcoming LOSS to adopt new knowledge, aspirations, behaviors, attitudes, skills, animals, babies, cultures, life*worth*living as life and person keep changing here, there and beyond. Please be sure to maintain equitable, open social contract with whatever it is the "human" in charge is "adopting" as "free" for liberty and justice for one/all thanks.
REJECTION,
MASTERY AND CONTROL,
IDENTITY,
INTIMACY,
GRIEF
are the other 5 cards.
Violently, I'm left behind,
sad-goes-mad,
I "get" angry, sick, tired
carrying baggage that's not mines,
doing werk others, the most un/usual suspects, sloughed off thru adoption.
we are discovering adoption of people, place, thing
is more akin to exploitation - slavery as stands, historically - now. see exhibit E about how to renegotiate any/all authoritative and amygdalan lop-sided social contracts within home - "nation".
EXHIBIT B)
Imagine: You are a Teacher of Teens in America, abused, neglected, systemically left behind since birth, developmentally, culturally, academically delayed by 10 years
EXHIBIT B)
Imagine: You are a Teacher of Teens in America, abused, neglected, systemically left behind since birth, developmentally, culturally, academically delayed by 10 years