I have so much anger in my heart right now.
It's not mine, yet still it festers in my heart and mind.
It's 2:45 in the morning.
I am so angry at systemic racism, abuse/neglect my family and friends misdiagnosing and mistreating me, and all the times I did that to others before realizing how I have been taken.
I want to die.
EXHIBIT E)
Pleas of an International Adoptee for Dignity, Equity, Inclusion, Liberty, Justice, Tolerance
1) Please stop thinking/acting as if people are shades of crazy, lazy, dumb, evil thank you.
2) Please
3) Please openly include Romany, all kumpaniya~tribes,
EXHIBIT F)
EXHIBIT H)
footnotes from m'self to our'selves,
Kaale/Mustalainen/Black/FinnishRomanyGypsyme
part of "my""werk" is "play to stay alive".
Kaale/Mustalainen/Black/FinnishRomanyGypsyme
part of "my""werk" is "play to stay alive".
please don't tell me to refine refine refine thanks
for that superior, holocaustic train of thought underscores the extent of exclusion - slavery to this day;
and that my exercise is to spit it out this shit finally in the first place.
adopt a draft,
rough, incomplete,
kind of like me,
god only knows if this is close to conveyance
and please pardon sarcasm, hate, intolerance, violence,
danger steer clear,
that's my amygdala fearfully reacting to ongoing racism/loss/abuse/neglect.
what? did u think that's who i truly am? there's that erase-ism, racism again. me, too; I kin relate.
I'm sorry.
Please forgive me.
And thank you.
I love you all,
Spirit,
and
Ho'oponopono.
EXHIBIT A)
GUILT AND SHAME
card
predictably flips out,
1 of the 6 with which each human dances while overcoming LOSS to adopt new knowledge, aspirations, behaviors, attitudes, skills, animals, babies, cultures, life*worth*living as life and person keep changing here, there and beyond. Please be sure to maintain equitable, open social contract with whatever it is the "human" in charge is "adopting" as "free" for liberty and justice for one/all thanks.
REJECTION,
MASTERY AND CONTROL,
IDENTITY,
INTIMACY,
GRIEF
are the other 5 cards.
Violently, I'm left behind,
sad-goes-mad,
I "get" angry, sick, tired
carrying baggage that's not mines,
doing werk others, the most un/usual suspects, sloughed off thru adoption.
we are discovering adoption of people, place, thing
is more akin to exploitation - slavery as stands, historically - now. see exhibit E about how to renegotiate any/all authoritative and amygdalan lop-sided social contracts within home - "nation".
PRE-EXHIBIT)
"just pretend today I'm dead, fallen to the adoptee 4x more likely to suicide stat,"
after finally crawling out of "our""nest" to toss "my" water n shit the toilet,
around 11am i said to "my" love when commented with concern on my sleepless night.
he understands this is not a stick up.
Please,
simply honor the masses of adoptees,
unofficial and not,
who have already fallen to suicide,
by heeding our pleas for tolerance,
see
EXHIBIT E
thank you
eye sense its not gonna be as hard as u may imagine.
unless u been schooled to alienate life, "to be" more attached to thinking than people.
scroll to end to see ultimate exhibit before you leave
"just pretend today I'm dead, fallen to the adoptee 4x more likely to suicide stat,"
after finally crawling out of "our""nest" to toss "my" water n shit the toilet,
around 11am i said to "my" love when commented with concern on my sleepless night.
he understands this is not a stick up.
Please,
simply honor the masses of adoptees,
unofficial and not,
who have already fallen to suicide,
by heeding our pleas for tolerance,
see
EXHIBIT E
thank you
eye sense its not gonna be as hard as u may imagine.
unless u been schooled to alienate life, "to be" more attached to thinking than people.
scroll to end to see ultimate exhibit before you leave
EXHIBIT B)
The way u think and act can change this STAT:
adoptee changes for
nations and families
to their delight
but then
4x more likely to suicide,
not to mention lash out, homicide,
flunk out of school, family, society
grossly misdiagnosed and mistreated.
EXHIBIT C)
Untreated loss delays/obstructs ability of free will to develop as s/he wishes, academically - culturally.
Untreated loss breeds intolerance, hate, violence, not evil fruits of the devil.
Untreated loss, like litter on land, can breed intolerance, hate, violence by those left behind to pick.
EXHIBIT D)
1 Corinthians 15:31 KJV
EXHIBIT E)
Pleas of an International Adoptee for Dignity, Equity, Inclusion, Liberty, Justice, Tolerance
1) Please stop thinking/acting as if people are shades of crazy, lazy, dumb, evil thank you.
That's how autocrats, slave-holders - Hitler thought and acted.
NO, we don't really get to "think", "do", "say" whatever the fuck we "want".
We won wars opposing this intolerance.
I don't want to fight anymore
for I see how even the "good""fight" sabotages my purpose to love.
live free or die
2) Please
immerse us all in adoption spirit,
removing us immediately
from amygdala's cut-off-culture and its "zero tolerance" fight-flight-freeze-fuck fighting spirit,
thank you.
3) Please openly include Romany, all kumpaniya~tribes,
(commonly called gypsy and/or Gypsy, in parallel vein to "nigger")
in all the relevant places within your K12 standards/books - community - home - life thank you.
Please meet my friends/family, professionals - volunteers to consult during the process thank you.
what if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, joy, peace on earth and beyond?
danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as u wish, mourn what is
EXHIBIT G)
I sense animals/land may most appreciate this accommodation without being able to express.
Please consider immediate redistribution
firework and "Independence Day" funds
to all abused, neglected, orphaned newborn - elder people, places, things in y/our "community"
that we, the People of the USA have "adopted" as "free", FINLAND, TOO:
animals, land, Indigenous all tribes, Africans, Asians, Latino, women, handi-capable, diseased, homeless, LGBTQ, Middle Eastern, Palestinian, Jews, "gypsies" of the world, too, including Romany all kumpaniya, so on and so forth (of course, adopt a draft, rough and incomplete, kind of like me).
we have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear;
we have received the spirit of adoption,
whereby we cry:
thanks god for helping us all, even the loves that actually believe us crazy, dumb, evil, hateful beings.
Romans 8:15
how to say the above and below scriptures in your languages?
as far as east is from west is how far transgression is removed from us Psalm 103:12
EXHIBIT I)
EXHIBIT J)
EXHIBIT K)
EXHIBIT L)
EXHIBIT M)
FIRST TRANSDIMENSIONAL LEVEL"When you are born if you have a healthy, well-grounded parent figure, this person (usually mother) at an unconscious level should help you descend your spirit through your kundalini and spine, through the first chakra and then down into the earth. Here you attach to the archetype of Life as it is anchored into the planet. This is highly crucial as the Life force is the main fueling source for survival and nourishment of the physical body. The Life force is one of the most powerful sources of energy on earth and is at once both nondual and universal. Your parent figures should also anchor you into the magnetic grids from the Earth, which secure your spirit into the Earth. Your first chakra anchor gives you a firm foundational feeling of belonging. At a very deep level you know you are at home on the Earth. Many people do not have this connection process completed within them shortly after birth."
EXHIBIT N)