mass murder, too many crows to count, caw Dracula
cute little snake, not black or green but some where in between them
head of a rake
smell of a skunk
smell of a skunk
slow roll
2 turkeys false starting, then waiting to cross
7 more turkeys feasting street side
still 1 turkey more, halting oncoming traffic on a 2 way lane
2 turkeys false starting, then waiting to cross
7 more turkeys feasting street side
still 1 turkey more, halting oncoming traffic on a 2 way lane
footnotes from m'self to ourselves,
Kaale/Mustalainen/Black/FinnishRomanyGypsyadoptedAmericanUSA*me
part of "my""werk" is "play to stay alive and thrive".
part of my exercise is to spit it out,
shit out this shit finally in the first place.
please don't tell me to refine refine refine thanks
for that superior, holocaustic train of thought
underscores extent of exclusion and slavery to this day thanks
adopt a draft, rough, incomplete, kind of like me,
god only knows if this is close to conveyance
and please pardon sarcasm, hate, intolerance, violence,
danger steer clear, that's my amygdala fearfully reacting to ongoing racism/loss/abuse/neglect.
and please pardon sarcasm, hate, intolerance, violence,
danger steer clear, that's my amygdala fearfully reacting to ongoing racism/loss/abuse/neglect.
what?
did u think that's who i truly am?
there's that erase-ism, racism again.
there's that erase-ism, racism again.
me, too; I kin relate.
I'm sorry. Please forgive me. And thank you. I love you all. and Ho'oponopono.
eye love u, Spirit, thank u for helping me draw the cards included in this post
pre-pre-exhibition)
we have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear;
we have received the spirit of adoption, whereby we cry:
thanks god for helping us all ~Romans 8:15
as far as east is from west is how far transgression is removed from us ~Psalm 103:12
pre-exhibition)
on the alchemy of learning.....
While dancing with 6 predictable cards (guilt and shame, mastery and control, rejection, identity, intimacy, grief), every human being adopts relevant knowledge, aspirations, skills, attitudes, behaviors, animals, babies, cultures, etc. for life needed, wanted, desired to overcome each/every loss -which also breeds intolerance, hate, violence, delayed academic - cultural development-, as life and that being keep changing here + there + beyond.
EXHIBIT A)
Where did the peep show begin today 8 September 2020? anoche, 7 Sept 2020 flip thru exhibits like tarot, or not.
Romany flag is excluded from general emoji-field, as is psychic-medium from category-field for FB pages. um. hum aum carry om Gypsy Myth Debunked
EXHIBIT B)
"For one and all, to raise awareness about adoption, Roma, a life worth living, a free 21st century capacity building experiential for individual and collective tolerant human identity." ~Gypsy Myth Debunked website established 2009, and all of its sweeping extensions 21st century Underground Railroad
EXHIBIT C)
Thanku, Ferera Swan, and The Swan Project, for your FB share: when someone continues to tell you their version of your pain they are not listening.
EXHIBIT D)
Thanku, The Declassified Adoptee, and @amandatda for your FB share: Adoptee Rights ARE Civil Rights LET'S BE RESPECTFUL WITH WHAT THAT REALLY MEANS.
EXHIBIT E)
Adoptee Gaslighting 102: You'd understand if you had a child.
EXHIBIT F)
Abused, Neglected, Orphan Adopted-and-Not Gaslighting 102: You'd understand if you had a child.
EXHIBIT G)
Word? I don't want to play "good cop bad cop" any more. So, instead for fun and tolerance-inside-out, I abandon words not people (like, good including all it's derivatives including bad AND crazy, to name a few). What that often looks like is I end up saying "good" and then rephrasing, taking more time and space to say what I mean to say more specifically, accurately, fairly, god willing, unless I drive us nuts first. Just kidding. No more words, hear only voice within, Rumi says. Instead of good vibes, Please welcome on this faerly clear channel for abused, neglected orphan adopted-and-not, and all their families, Music for body and spirit - Meditation music with Flute, Tabla and Tibetan Bowl, Pure Positive Vibes, Morning Meditation, Stress Relief, to conduct next sound healing shift on this 21st century Underground Railroad. What if mercy jubilee + evolution revolution = justice, joy, peace on earth/beyond? Danger steer clear, breathe easy, celebrate, as you wish, mourn what is. carry om, Love. ShhhhThis is "my" jam even after noon.
EXHIBIT H)
What if: one person at a time, all together, apart, we end hate, 'tis in the cards? Then: go play with yourself, careful for what u wish, mind your beeswax, shuffle constitution, ring my bell for spell/s as needed, carry om, Love, u go, GAME ON
EXHIBIT I)
Thanku, The Holistic Psychologist, for your FB share: "Emmeshment Within Families Looks Like:..."
Reminds me of much, like:
the fail on mesh that has been surgically inserted into people's parts
EXHIBIT J)
Thanku, @everything.aligns, for your IG share, words of Ram Dass:
"All you can do for another person is be an environment in which if they wanted to come up for air, they could." ...
Reminds me of much, like:
life guard, activate
Hurt People Hurt, So Tolerance Is An Inside Job. <---<< this chunk within that draft >>--->
Lessons gathered during life-guard training seem to apply across fields AND help me explain from a different angle for all the loves who hear the cries of the world and want to help. A few pointers show maybe where we want to be, as well as where we have gone astray.
TIP 1<3 do not go in for the save if you need to save yourself first, for then two people are at risk.
SNAFU>>>struck senseless amigula tripped into constant fight-or-flight, we have been encouraging folk to fight war before they have saved themselves and think this is smart, right, path to freedom. really? exchange citizenship for wartime service? fts um hum bless that shit , to make shift happen, blow like kiss shit back to universe for it to do its job of cosmic composting
TIP 2<3 do not go in for save if in doing so you put yourself in grave danger, for then risk is doubled.
SNAFU>>>struck senseless amigula tripped into constant fight-or-flight, we have been encouraging folk to run into danger zones and think this is smart, right, path to freedom. really? what mixed messages we send. fts um hum bless that shit , , to make shift happen, blow like kiss shit back to universe for it to do its job of cosmic composting
TIP 3<3 once committed to making a save, approach carefully, keeping arms/legs length away at certain junctures as to avoid being kicked and dragged under by exhausted, scared, drowning victim.
SNAFU>>>struck senseless amigula tripped into constant fight-or-flight, we step-up on a folk in an attempt to save, get in their face and space to try to keep them in line and think this is smart, right, path to freedom. really? so aggressive and violent. fts um hum bless that shit , , to make shift happen, blow like kiss shit back to universe for it to do its job of cosmic composting , to make shift happens
Tolerance is an inside job. now go play with yourself, Love, carry om.
EXHIBIT K)
Thanku, @everything.aligns, for your IG share: Did you know? About 400 million years ago, before trees were common, the Earth was covered with giant mushrooms.
Reminds how we are fungi fun guy, so connected, One Love.
EXHIBIT L)
9 Sept 2020
Wednesday is m'fundraising day. I'm not a brand or a biz but an adoptee raising awareness, ad free since 2009.
indulgent vs. life-saving?
Surprising even myself ~2000, on green card I drew,
“Writing is my path away from modern day slavery"
.......
Your donations pave way like salary.
pls email tinari.stevens@gmail.com thx. not a brand or biz, but abused, neglected, BIPOC orphan raising awareness, international adoptee I am, traveling tolerance exhibit am I.
More next steps 2020?
Who has where-with-all ASAP this fall to print, bind, mail to me 3 (1 to edit, 1 to share, 1 to keep) environmentally friendly copies of my free ph.d. in tolerance//life worth living/lifelong learning/justice/free will/adoption (all my blogs/websites since 2009)?
adopt a draft, rough and incomplete, kind of like me, adding up to a some what of a smoke stack: Gypsy Myth Debunked website and blog, Rromni Ramparts blog, Land of Art Monastery blog, Adoption Spirit Apothecary website.
Gypsy Myth Debunked: Purpose, Dedication, Forward, Contents https://gypsymythdebunked.blogspot.com/p/ask-gypsy-with-love-this-rrom-purpose.html
“…While the impetus to create a graphic blog might imply to some that I am committed indelibly to the content, rest assured that is not the case, and please kindly approach each blog as a different representations of certain stages of m'thought process as I learn/lead...." m'self away from modern day slavery Image may be NSFW.
Clik here to view.![🧚]()
Image may be NSFW.
Clik here to view.![🧚♂️]()
Clik here to view.
Image may be NSFW.Clik here to view.
don't think so hard, pick a card, any card; adopt a draft, rough and incomplete, kind of like me. that's a point. watch it, careful, it's sharp.
EXHIBIT M)
9 Sept 2020
Thank u, Ferera Swan, and The Swan Project, for your share:
"adoptees are four times more likely to suicide ~ American Academy of Pediatrics. September is Suicide Prevention and Awareness Month"
Reminds me of much, like:
How intake at one of my former places of employment (treatment center for "troubled youth") spiked this time of year, Oct, Nov, Dec too.
Coincidentally, I was gonna share that stat today after asking to be removed from family reunion email conversation happily circulating within extended adoptive family while racism/erase-ism card remains on the table virtually untouched.
Werking my art, craft, study, practice, science how to adopt success for one/all transmuting violence cycles into love, I see and hear
the abused, neglected, orphan adopted-and-not
changes for families and nations to their delight yet then 4x more likely to suicide,
not to mention lash out, homicide, overdose, flunk out of family, school, society
grossly misdiagnosed and mistreated.
Strangers, Aliens, U.K., U.S.A., Finland, China, Russia, Australia, etc some things gotta give and it's not the kids.
Maybe identity theft stops when we stop fucking/having/buying/selling babies at the sequence and rate we paced as if that's for the best.
I would have killed myself long ago, but I know I'm far from alone on these rocky roads.
dragonfly damselfly snakes alive kundalini rise
EXHIBIT N)
ApPARENTly , I'm not REALly at liberty to say much of any thing.
EXHIBIT O)
Dignity, Equity, Free Will, Boundaries, Unconditional Love, what is it about writing that draws me away from modern day slavery?
Mercy? Grace? God knows what else?
EXHIBIT P)
U know, the teacher is to blame for shitty lesson plan when students fail to attend.
Instead of "shitty" I could say: plan that has not met students' needs.....
and now people are falling sleeping.....
On non violence, truth, and his 9 other vows, Gandhi reminds: home is first university and parents the teachers.
CSNY adds hot tip for kids: teach your parents well.
Me, too,
even tho no kids have i and this is not my classroom but it is
I am shit teacher reforming
Schools within the U.S.A. earn coveted and esteemed ratings based in part on shit like student attendance, which, when you really stop to think about, is a relatively fascist policy that leaves behind scads of youth unable to make it to school.
Teachers left, right and center on virtually every block through Europe and U.S.A. post-"No Child Left Behind"/'Southern European Decade of Romani Inclusion" are left behind making lesson plans for all students to be able attend to learning their lessons, even ones unable to walk, talk, see, hear.........
What's the overarching goal again?
To adopt success for one/all transmuting violence to love?
Or alienating life?
I can't quite tell from the looks of it,
and the world doesn't revolve around me
btw like a kiss blow all the shit back to universe for it to do its job of cosmic composting back to beauty
EXHIBIT Q)
from 9 Sept 2018
only way out is in :0 work
tolerance
inside out
for it is an inside-job
tolerance
inside out
for it is an inside-job
EXHIBIT R)
Thanku, Anette
Åkerlund, for being such a love light, dancing, singing, teaching flamenco AND History of Roma course online with University of Helsinki's Open University Courses, Thursdays 3 Sept - 10 Dec at 12-1:30pm
Seeing your thoughts as you prepare, how the early time with Roma was hard "but they had each other, which was their strength and capital. " is intense.
Reminds me of what
I lost. families, languages, cultures, dignity, equity, happiness, will to live.Thank you, Anette, for helping retrieve family, life worth living, Romany riches, justice, self-reparations. I feel blessed to have met you at GLS 2009 Helsinki, Finland.
EXHIBIT S)
hmmm
just snookered the coffee cup with more cream must be needin to breast feed
u know, i be lactose intolerant.
That cream was fresh almond milk, compliments of my partner, mother nature, father sky.
I was not breast fed. I did not spend my first minutes, hours, days, weeks, months with boob.
Around planet earth some adopted animals "get" at least 2 months with their bitch and family.
What? Is that rude? Which part?
EXHIBIT T)
time for A.P. Bio, s2 e1, happiness, so gay, reasons kids get kicked out of class/school/fam coming out of the closet like a pride parade
EXHIBIT U)
just another quiet day at the office, u know who comes HOW COME